Nikki BellaandJohn Cenamay have reunited, but it’s not all re-engaged bliss for the couple.InSunday night’s episodeofTotal Bellas, Bella admitted that she still has somehesitation about her relationship— despite Cena, 41, changing his mind about having kids.Just weeks before her scheduled wedding, Bella, 34, said she felt like a “hot mess.”“I’m all sorts of messed up,” she said. “It’s like a hot mess over here.”TheDancing with the Starsalum recognized that she had sacrificed too much of herself for the sake of her relationship. Bella said she was afraid she would lose her sense of individuality and self-identity after marrying Cena.“I want him to live the life he wants and I think that’s why I’ve always sacrificed for him,” she confessed. “I love taking care of people, but I think I’m so over-pleasing.”She continued: “I think it makes me feel like I’m going to be forever a wife, someone’s wife. Like, I’m not going to be Nicole or Nikki.”Bellas’ concerns left her once again questioning her upcoming wedding.Gary Miller/FilmMagic“Some of me is like, ‘Why did I want marriage so bad? Why am I even doing this?'” she said. “Because I don’t know how much longer I can go without actually having a big meltdown.”RELATED VIDEO: 5 Things To Know About John Cena and Nikki BellaAftercalling off their engagementin April, just three weeks before their May 5 wedding date, PEOPLE confirmed earlier this month the couple isback together. Sources previously told PEOPLE that her decision to call it quits was due to their differing stances onmarriageandhaving kids.Earlier this month, Cena also publicly confirmed that after years of insisting he had no desire to start a family, he’dhad a change of heart, andvowed to get his vasectomy reversed.Total Bellasairs Sundays (9 p.m. ET) on E!
Nikki BellaandJohn Cenamay have reunited, but it’s not all re-engaged bliss for the couple.
InSunday night’s episodeofTotal Bellas, Bella admitted that she still has somehesitation about her relationship— despite Cena, 41, changing his mind about having kids.
Just weeks before her scheduled wedding, Bella, 34, said she felt like a “hot mess.”
“I’m all sorts of messed up,” she said. “It’s like a hot mess over here.”
TheDancing with the Starsalum recognized that she had sacrificed too much of herself for the sake of her relationship. Bella said she was afraid she would lose her sense of individuality and self-identity after marrying Cena.
“I want him to live the life he wants and I think that’s why I’ve always sacrificed for him,” she confessed. “I love taking care of people, but I think I’m so over-pleasing.”
She continued: “I think it makes me feel like I’m going to be forever a wife, someone’s wife. Like, I’m not going to be Nicole or Nikki.”
Bellas’ concerns left her once again questioning her upcoming wedding.
Gary Miller/FilmMagic
“Some of me is like, ‘Why did I want marriage so bad? Why am I even doing this?'” she said. “Because I don’t know how much longer I can go without actually having a big meltdown.”
RELATED VIDEO: 5 Things To Know About John Cena and Nikki Bella
Aftercalling off their engagementin April, just three weeks before their May 5 wedding date, PEOPLE confirmed earlier this month the couple isback together. Sources previously told PEOPLE that her decision to call it quits was due to their differing stances onmarriageandhaving kids.
Earlier this month, Cena also publicly confirmed that after years of insisting he had no desire to start a family, he’dhad a change of heart, andvowed to get his vasectomy reversed.
Total Bellasairs Sundays (9 p.m. ET) on E!
source: people.com
